
So angry, but so strong!

Happy mom, happy baby :)
This week has been pretty eventful for all of us! I started back at work on Monday, and Julia had her first day in daycare. The decision to go back to work was very difficult and one that Tom and I made with much consideration. Unlike most jobs, mine is not one that I can just put in 2-weeks notice and walk away from. Ultimately, it wasn't a decision made for financial reasons, but one that was based on the commitment I made to serve, and everything I have done in the last almost 10 years to work towards being an officer. As long as Julia is happy and working doesn't take away from our life as a family, but rather enhances it, I'll continue to serve. It was really difficult leaving for work on Monday, but knowing that she's going to be well taken care of made it a little bit easier. Since I work such long shifts, Tom has to take her and pick her up everyday, and I was a little worried about how things would go for him. Monday went as smooth as possible (Tom described it as "magical"!!), but Tuesday was a little rough. I get to visit her on my lunch breaks to feed her, and I am so thankful for that. When I went to get her on Monday, the ladies said she had been sleeping all morning, but when I started talking with them she woke up and looked around for me! That felt so neat, that she recognized my voice and was looking for me. It's great to have those special moments with her :). On Tuesday, she was only there for a couple hours in the morning, since we had our last group "prenatal" appointment. This was the reunion with all the new parents and babies. It was so awesome to see all the babies together, and to see everyone as parents! It was really weird to see everyone not pregnant too. Our midwife got a few really good group pictures, which I'll of course post once I get them. It was really neat because two of the babies have parents in Tom's unit, so we got a photo of all the "services babies." We went around and shared our birth stories, and not only was Julia the first one born of the group, I think she also had the least traumatic birth. Everyone in our group either was induced or had a c-section, so I felt very blessed that besides getting an epidural, my birth experience was very "normal".
Before the appointment, Tom and I met with a lactation consultant because she's had trouble latching on, and also because of how fussy she is at night. The lady gave us some really good advice (which I started using last night, and it's been working!!). With the fussiness, she suggested cutting out dairy and some other foods, like nuts and maybe wheat, and see how she does with that. I think it's definitely dairy that bothers her because I drink a lot of milk and LOVE to eat ice cream :(. It's going to be tough not having those if it is what's bothering her, but it'll be so worth it! It breaks our hearts when she's so upset and nothing we try seems to work. I'll keep you all updated on how she does with that!